Day 16


i went to bed early last night, cos was feeling very tired and unproductive.. Jill was still studying and surfing the net i guess, for some wallpaper stuff.. she couldnt sleep last night, thanks to my snoring, and kept asking me to turn sideways so that i would stop... cos i was sleeping and i dun noe wat i do when i'm sleeping, i became irritated and said some mean stuff that hurt her.. so she went out for awhile, hoping that i would join her, but i was snoringaway on the bed... i woke up when she came back to bed, and i realised something was not right.. so i asked her and explained to her.. luckily she was understanding enuff.. but she cried, which made me sad too.. then she told me she had a letter for me on the table.. at first i tot i could read it later as i was lazy to get out of bed.. but then she said she wanted to confiscate it, so i quickly go read it.. it was something abt how she felt.. after reading it, i was feeling guilty and sad.. looks like i've been an insensitive bastard without realising it.. knnbccb.. how fucker can i be? the part where it touches me most is the part she signed off, as "your baby".. anyway, i was on the verge of tearing but i held it back.. so we had a chat and sorted thing out.. it was then 5+am.. she sadi she wanted to show me the wallpaper stuff that she found on the web.. so we both were looking at it till abt 6+am.. then i suggested mac breakfast... we when to the drive through and ordered breakfast.. on the way back, she play the song "moon river" which i like it alot.. the tune and melody was so right.. the moment i heard it, i loved it.. i could imagine the strong old love between 2 old couples, with white hair, yet the love was so strong as though they were in their teens... i could see myself dancing with her by the song.. awwww...


back to reality.. finally had the results to my website project.. HD! kewl.. Jill got D though, she still dunno yet, cos she's still sleeping.. but guess she'll feel sad when she finds out.. cos she doenst like scoring lower than me.. hmmm.. gonna hit the books again.. jus 3 more days left..


i love u baby.. pls forgive me for the hurt i've caused u..