it's been awhile...

since i last lost it, my temper i mean...

there have been a couple of times where i jus endure and try to not blow up.. of cos not everytime is becos of u, actually most of it is not becos of u.. but keeping all these emotions in me, is like a antimatter waiting to get in contact with a matter, then BOOM!!! (Angels and Demons) i think my temper has gonna better already.. i remembered myself when i was young, a hot-tempered young man who let his anger ruled over his head.. but over the past few years, this pitbull has tone down alot..

anyway, i'm sorry that u had to be the one who directly experienced the explosion.. i can be a jerk at times, i know that.. i'm sorry for always making u cry.. but i'm glad to have u.. to have u around to console me whenever things gets to my head.. but u got to noe, i'm a person who sets my priorities right... well, overboard at times maybe, but i jus cant do anything if my mind is on something else... i stress myself alot.. i set high expectations on myself, and maybe on you as well... i'm sorry to pull u into my mess.. i realised we have different working patterns.. pls try and understand me as well...

i accidentally scratched my car jus now... cos of the stupid pole the owner put on the edge of the lawn.. knn... plus felix's car was partially blocking me.. i thought i might be able to pull through, cos i din wanna trouble him to move his car, since he was having his dinner.. stupid.. it's not a very obvious scratch, but it quite a long one.. fuck.. this would make selling it even more difficult now.. i wouldnt expect to much now... getting half of wat we paid, i'll be happy enough.. haiz..

nothing's going great for me.. hope wrissspoo is right about my fortune.. that i'll be successful and enjoy at a later stage of my life.. but meanwhile, must finish this 10%, 4000 words project... cheebye...